"Permanent limbo" seems pretty accurate.
I feel somewhat disconnected from everything here. Sometimes I feel like I’ve travelled back in time. A lot of my friends still go to the same places, only hang out with the same people, and do the same things. Nothing has really changed. Living abroad has forced me to constantly seek new experiences and new people and that’s what has brought me the most happiness. I think that’s why I’m kind of being strange..messaging so many people on Facebook from my past that I haven’t talked to or seen in so long. And from them I’ve been able to meet tons of great people. Some of my close friends wonder why I don’t see them every weekend like before but I don’t really know what to say.
The first thing I noticed was when I landed in San Francisco for my layover and realized I was a minority again. I was the only Asian at my gate which was a strange feeling because I’ve lived in Asia for 4 years and blended in with the majority of the population.
But then again growing up in the U.S. I’ve always identified myself as Korean or the Asian guy. It wasn’t until I moved to Korea to realize how American I really was. I think as Asian Americans we’re sort of stuck in between both places not knowing where we fit in “perfectly”.
Oddly enough, Asia has become my home…
A bunch of my friends that I’ve met again all tell me to “just stay” but I have this feeling of unresolved/unfinished business in Asia. I don’t feel ready to leave Korea yet so I will probably be there for another year or so and go from there.
I want to hop all around the world.
The U.S. doesn’t feel like “home” at all anymore. I can’t get into my daily routines I had in Seoul. Strange feeling
I’ve been meeting so many people though. I’ve Facebook messaged people from all different stages in my life. Even met friends from middle I haven’t seen since I left for California in the 7th grade.
Met several people from the internetz. Everyone always turns out to be really cool. I’m here for another month or so, if anyone wants to meet I’m planning another get together soon. Msg me.
New IISE collection releases in a couple of days…getting that excited/nervous feeling again. I’m really happy how nice they turned out. As usual there were many delays, almost nothing goes as planned but I’ve gotten used to that now and have learned how to deal with it better each time. Nothing always goes as planned. That’s life. How quickly you adapt to surprise situations is what really matters.
18 days until I finally get to meet Jeff Staple, someone I’ve looked up to for a long time. Can’t sleep every night thinking about winning 1st place in the competition..
I stayed home yesterday and I’m staying home tonight so I can start reading a book my friend recommended to me…I’ve changed.
1 more month left of 2013. Definitely a crazy year for me. Probably the most life changing. This year is proof that time flies by and 365 days is in fact a very short time. Time to make more use of my day.
Sad to see some close friends really hating their lives and doing nothing about it. It seems like some people will never change no matter how much you try to encourage them :(
Finished reading Rich Dad, Poor Dad last night. Some of the stuff is outdated but the basics will stay true forever and I definitely learned a few awesome key points. Intelligence and knowledge are the keys to financial freedom and happiness.
People who spend more money on others than themselves inspire me.